Perignonic; the blessed knight

Happy birthday to me!
Happy birthday to me!
Happy birthday to Ivan!
happy birthday to me!

If you didn't call me stupid/pig brain/useless.
THIS wouldn't happen.
I wouldn't be some stupid boy who can't find a proper job.
Someone who can't even find his way into a Uni.
Someone who find it difficult to tell everyone how he feels.
Someone who can't even lift his head up and be proud of who he is or his parents.
Someone whose future is in ruins because of his past.
Someone who knows that everything he does is a complete waste of time.
Someone who knows nothing about love.
Someone who is worried that he will end up like his parents.
Someone who hates his life.
YES, I am that bloody someone.
IF you remembered properly.
The only reason i became rebellious was because of what happened many years ago.
I lost my sister.
I lost EVERYTHING.
I lost my future.
I hated school.
I hated myself.
I hated everyone that laughed at me and called me names.
I was JADED.
Today you just made me feel lot more worst.
Since you say I'm stupid then so be it.
I will act stupid for you.
Because you are my mother.
Love,
Your stupid son.
Stupid

When you call me "Pig Brain" you know I'll give you a very good reply.

Cause you're a pig therefore i have pig's brain.

All i gotta say is that you brought it up to yourself.

Respect is only given to those who deserve it.

If you have issues with me, talk to me personally. don't tell every fucking single one and then let them come tell me this.

If that happens, I will ensure you that i will not give you any respect at all.

If you wanna play rough with me you gotta know you limits, don't go home and cry father cry mother say I am being a jerk to your who-so-ever.

Also do take note that I have been keeping QUIET about many fucking stupid things and I had enough of this bullshit.

PS: You know who you are, where you're from, what you did and what happened.

It's been some time since I last blog. Seems like I just lost it. The love of being a blogger. I moss those time when I just say what I want and yes I agree, I've grown up. I no longer trust people that easily unlike before.

I reconsider more than before i step into a relationship.

Life have been rocky for me.

I miss my mum and my step family in Australia.

I broke up last year with someone I really thought we could last, until I found out that he's lying, then again. Do homosexual relationship last?

I gave myself too many hopes that now I rather be hopelessly lost.

Time to take a walk in the forest again.

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I have tonnes of questions to ask right now, below are some of the things i would like to touch on.

As i believe that some questions are left unanswered, but you should know the answer yourself.

How would you do to protect a relationship fro falling apart?

Do you talk to your partner talk on the phone?

Range from 1 (Worst) to 10(best) Do you trust your partner?

Range from 1 (Worst) to 10(best) how would you rate your partner mentally?

Are you mentally attracted to your partner?

Is your partner attracted to you mentally?

Have you ever quarreled with your partner over small issues?

Have you ever thought of how your partner would think about you?

Have you ever thought of how your partner would think about your friends?

Have you ever thought of how your partner would think about your job?

Have you ever thought of how your partner would think about your past?

Did your partner mention about their past?

Did your partner mention about their job?

Did your partner mention about their friends?

Ever tried talking to your partner on your feelings?

Ever tried talking to your partner on your needs?

Did your partner talk to you about their feelings?

Did your partner talk to you about their needs?

Do you trust your partner?

Many of this questions have a lot meaning to them and i'm damn curious on knowing what would the future hold for people like you and me.

For the better or for the worst? Till death do us part? Till we meet again?

I'm curious and i'm here to learn.

 Yup it's my birthday yet again! :P

Thank you fot those who SMSed and FBed me! :)

i miss blogging alot too! :) been trying to crack my brain for inspiration, however..

i can't think about anything right now as i'm keeping all my secrets in my never ending bag. :P

all i can say now is thank for you guys for being with me for the how many times and forgiving me for most of my mistakes i've done! :D

i wish you guys well and hope to meet you guys SOON!

TILL THEN.

I had a lot of Deja vu event recently. Like in the office and back at home playing WoW.

I sometimes wonder if there's a chance for me to explore the future in my dreams.

I mean come on, I encountered 2 Deja vu event last Friday and the 2 dreams were months apart.

Could it be a signal for me or it just happened because my brain wants them to?

Am I gifted to dream about it?

I dreamt that the resort that I used to work for became nothing but ruins, perhaps the whole island was abandoned, I don't know.

What I dreamt was me' touching the dirty sofa and said that I missed the place alot which I said it out outside my dreams as well.

I wanna know of someone or some group knows anything about the dreams that I had and if they could help me by expanding it.

I know that might spoil my Future because I know everything. But these dreams that I had aren't jokes. =\

PS: I hate smoking, but I dreamt that I smoked. I even felt the sensation of the cigarette.

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just today on twitter, a friend of mine post on his twitter asking on the definition of being awesome.

of course, theres 101 meaning on that. but he want us to reply him in our own ways.

the link to his post can be found here.

oh by the way, Jason, my mum's boyfriend *my step dad to-be*

Bought us a MacBook Pro as mum told him our laptop was dying.

really sweet of him.

never expected a MacBook Pro in the first place.

i'm now trying to just used to it as i'm suppose to teach mum how to use it too.. lol..

i'll post some pictures soon.

i really miss blogging.

Be good and stay Awesome! :)